Why My Blog

I’ve got a few hits already. But I question the reason of this blog. Did it have to exist? Does it need to make a difference to anyone else? These words are oblivious to their complete meanings. That means the probability of these lines ever having a meaning is lower than the probability of this world having eternal peace.

The only thing certain is that in my consciousness, the writer, does it have a predetermined meaning. Only when the reader tries to connect would they be able to understand the meaning, that me as a writer has tried to conveyed, only ten, does a meaning with the target audience gets created.

But by writing all this as a “blog”, do I try to refuse facing the real person behind the mask writing this blog. Perhaps in order to avoid myself, do I write these words. Perhaps I’m saying what I felt, or what I thought. But this is me. But this is a biased me. However, this is also subjectivity through which the objective matter is presented. This subjectivity hides the reality from only my perspective. I keep some feelings concealed while reveal the others. Is this fair?

These desires to speak out does not have a body, but by relying on words, perhaps I can create a whole new me, but blurring what I currently am, and denying my current self. But is this something to detest?

Perhaps these two shells of mine should be acknowledge by denying one another, but the truth is that the real me has to be a merger between the two which defines and recreates myself.

My desires, and wishes would still be the same, so perhaps I’m not really changing anything!

Not many Kashan’s exist in this world. And of the rare few, I chose to be anonymous for now, and reveal only parts necessary as I go along with this blog.

~ by zkashan on August 5, 2008.